We were walking into a gorgeous new home on the market in our area. We had been thinking about moving into a new home and this place just seemed so magical! I was over a year into my Food Freedom journey when all of a sudden, BAM! My Body image freak out moment happened.

As we were walking outside and looking at the pool, my heart was lit up by the sight of this magical back yard. I could see us throwing parties, with the strung-up outdoor lights as the pool festivities were going strong and our friends and family came over to play in our new oasis. But then, something happened, and I suddenly spun into a vicious spiral of “Holy shit, I need to lose weight before I walk around this pool in front of people.” My jeans suddenly felt tighter and more restrictive as my fast and heavy breathing forced me to focus on my stomach overhanging my boa-constrictor-like jeans. I was suddenly repulsed by my own body.

The panic instantly overtook me, and my mind raced with going back to macros and m...