Hubby and I are heading to Arizona in 2 weeks for a golf trip and I bought some new bathing suits for the trip!

Even after my journey of healing my relationship with food and learning how to love and accept my body, it was still pretty antagonizing for my inner mean girl.
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I would be lying if I said it wasn’t a bit triggering trying each piece on because they made me a little more self-conscious about my body at first.⁣
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A bigger size, more body, and new territory that couldn’t be covered up by an oversized sweatshirt and high-waisted yoga pants were a bit terrifying as I stared at my no-longer-lean body in the mirror.
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But it was something I was weirdly proud of in a way. ⁣
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At first, the insecurity took over because weight gain is such a de-value of worth in our culture. If you gain weight, people see you as not taking care of yourself, losing your health, and “falling off the wagon.” ⁣
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But this weight gain was my personal story of triumph over eating disorders and obsessive health, and...